Non-Smoker and left hand exercises

A good group of people I work with are smokers. Hey! I'm not hating, I'm just stating.
So like any smoker, you take smoke breaks which are allowed at my job.
I work in a very stressful industry so whatever gets you through the day. Do you boo do you.

Here and there I decide to take "non-smoker breaks".  I don't want to start a cigarette habit just so I can take a breather. I try to keep them under 10 minutes since there's always work to be done and I don't want to be there until 10pm.  I could just sit outside the office on the bench contemplating my life.
do chubby latina women not have lifestyle blogs about being in their 30s, having debt and lusting over dorky white guys? where you at boo?!

Anyways, to relieve some stress I decided to take out a piece of paper and a marker and take it outside to draw.  Side story - I hate just being dominant in my right hand. So since I was a teenager I have made an effort to write or draw with my left hand. In my weird thoughts, if for some reason my right hand got chopped off, I would still be able to draw with my left hand. I know. Insane thought. I never said I was normal. I do have a sound mind. However, it just more whacky than others. I draw or write with my left hand when I can.
OK now back to what I was saying. My friends know I start talking about one thing, hit the brakes and start talking about something COMPLETELY DIFFERENT. No transition. I just assume everyone  has the same logic I do. haha

I took the paper and pen outside and took to drawing something with my left hand.
BEHOLD...my left hand came up with this...

I don't exactly know what it is or where it came from. I started with the eyes and worked my way out. I have contemplated painting with my left hand. My drawings are more free flowing when I draw with my left hand. My right hand is very controlled and knows where to go. My hands are somewhat reflective of my personality. I do like having control but I'll let go since it always seem like the other person needs it more than I do. Fuck it.  I'm good. :) 

I have simple goals in my life so far and having complete control is not one of them. 

I just want to make art, pay off my debt, be really good at my job, own a dog someday and have fun responsibly. Also owning a boat, petting a blue whale and living on an island is somewhere in my crazy dreams.
I digress...my non-smoker breaks are my tiny moments to breathe and let my imagination have recess time.