The cranky monsta came out and I bitch slapped it.

To say the least I've had a bad past week. I worked two doubles back to back on Friday and Saturday. I could feel my energy being sucked out of my pores from working with customers and robotically regurgitating "How's it going? Did you find everything you needed?. At some point, I almost felt I was having an out of body experience at the register. My soul was trying to escape my physical vessel. It didn't want to put up with so much shit for that much longer.
I never felt so good about taking a 15 minute break outside just staring into space.
I could feel it building up. I'm one tough cookie so I sucked up and forced a joker smile the rest of my day. I went home that day asking myself so many questions. I'm not in a bad place just not gaining enough momentum to head in my desired direction.
Laying horizontally automatically makes you look up. So I did and started to pray. I'm not a religious person at all. I don't do church. However, in times of desperation my fallback is prayer. A few minutes later I hoped to wake up the next day feeling energized.

And I did - this isn't by any means a campaign for praying. It just works for me sometimes. Call it what you will. Inspiration hit me and I'm choosing not to resign myself to a life of retail servitude.
So I'm applying for the graduate certificate in Spanish translation/interpreting at American University.  My language is a part of me and I never want to lose my Spanish. It's so important and I would feel weird if I couldn't talk it anymore. I also want to help others who can't speak English. For once I would like to put my brain to work and prove to myself that I am capable of doing anything I set my mind too.

This does not mean I have given up on creating more art. In fact, it will make me work harder at my dream. I'm a Whitman Sampler girl. I want to taste a little sample of everything this world is offering me. The problem with that is that I end up working lots of odd jobs and not fully going full force on one project. Today I am changing that.  I want to have the ability to function on various levels instead of just restricting myself  to one path. I want my path to venture off to different side roads and still end up back on the same path. The scenic view is always nicer.

While I'm in the process of applying and what not I found other artists that will continue to get my artsy mojo going. Here are some I found thanks to a friend of mine.

Neta Metlukh

Liza Corbett

Robert Carter

Once again I have refueled my tank and I'm ready to go full force in my life. I'm sending out only ****POSITIVE VIBES**** to you and everyone you know.